im sick on it..

im sick on it..
especially my family... haix..

i feel tat i wanna to leave here so soon..
dono why... everytime like tat..

i know im not pro in my academy like my brother and my sister..
so tat's why i never get a special treat by them..
even i go competition they also will say : "aiyo are you sure you can get??"

i still remember that when im primary..
im follow a piano competition.. they never attend.. until they also say fast fast go home coz that prize "mei you ni de fen"

now im follow the suzuki teacher trainer.. everyday need to practise..
dint practise i will die infront of jessica..
gv scold by her..
but while i practise at home.. my mum will say eh dont practise so noisy !
she say im not playing well on it.. of coz i haven play it well la.. just a few month i learn ... im not genius.. can get use on it so fast... no one will play it well without practise de la.. OK!

dint "GU LI WO JIU SUAN LE, BUT STILL WANNA STEP ON ME AT MY BACK"
i wan to learn VIOLA... !! but my parent say ... aiyo.. you also dint practise your violin wan to learn viola?? WT !@#$%%&* i practise say i make noise and make her headache.. i dint practise den say me "HANGAT HANGAT TAHI AYAM.."...

still remember.. last week.. because of like tat i cry the whole night long..
because im going to competition so soon.. but i already get bored with my piano song.. i have already play this song for 3years for sure get bored la.. but because of this i still keep on my mind tat i wan learn it back.. from the begining.. i cant give up like tat..!! so i learn back lo.. but wa!! while im playing den my mum suddenly say : "nicole , even mummy dono piano de ppl, but i can tell you tat.. you play it very worse..."
i know i play worse so tat im work on it from the begining.. but she direct shoot me like tat haix!! =(